knock knock. housekeeping.

I don't get why I have to make my bed after I wake up. Or at all. My room. My rules.

I'll only wash dishes if I have gloves.

I'll only do the laundry if we have a dryer.

I'll cook if our kitchen's inside the house, not an outside extension.

I'd be a kitchen munchie if you let me wear my house slippers in the kitchen.

I'm fussy I believe. I'm a clean freak I believe. I'm only lax when it comes to dust.

I don't do toilets. Except when things get reeeeeally getting bad. *smirk*

I'd do it all you know, if you let me do it at my own pace. I'd do it if you let me do it at my own time. You know I would. But you don't let me.

So I get off with not doing house chores most of the time. ^^

Shh...now don't you be exposing my ways. Secrets of a succesful teenage life. More to come perhaps in the near future. *wink*

blog transfer

Pay attention, people. Pay attention.

Henceforth the 1st of December 2005, dodofarney.blogspot.com will be transfered to updatedversion.blogspot.com Full expectations of altered thoughts are required. The occasional comment and tags are always welcome. More than occasional visits are also welcome. Virtual popularity doesn't hurt. *grin*

Remember, 1st Dec. Go to updatedversion.blogspot.com instead of dodofarney, aight? See ya there. ^^

Of rage and conversations...or the other way round

I don't know if it's hormones or natural rage or I'm sensitive or just plain rebellion. But some people just tick me off.

"and is that what's getting you down...that somehow you're lost ocntrol of your academic life and everything is spiralling downwards into the depths of God knows what and that you won't be able to pick up where you left off when school starts again?"

*sound of head exploding*

I had to log off after that before I killed my pooter out of rage. Well, actually...Nah, I'm kidding. I had to go off 'cos someone else had to use the pooter. In any case, I'm just a little ticked off for not getting the last word. I didn't get the chance to explain myself. I know that I don't have to, at all. But I don't like being misunderstood. I hate it when people think they know when they obviously don't. [Hmmm...that quote seems very familiar. Courtesy of Mr Physics I suppose. Har har.]

For one, I am not down. Who said I was anyway? Do not assume that I am, from the way I speak or look. If I am down, heh, you will surely know. I will let you know. Otherwise, my surly looks and grim tone is merely a part of my personality alright. I can't bloody change my features without plastic surgery, can I? I'm moody when I'm normal. I'm loud when I'm stating my rights. Surely you should know that by now, if you had been paying attention at all.

Two, I have not lost control of my academic life. If that's what you call a life. Pfft. If I have lost control, I wouldn't be bloody blogging about it now, would I? I know well what I am doing, I know well what I have done. The results are what I expected. Sure I shocked many many maaaaany people. But I didn't do it for their pleasure or pain. I did it for myself. O bloody hell I had the time of my life anyway, doing what I wanted. Exams are just a way of knowing whats in your head at that moment. Guess I had a lot of other stuff going on at that time. *shrug* I always know what I'm doing. Never tell me that I don't.

Oh and please don't make assumptions from things or events that have happened. Don't assume you know what's going on in my life because something like "failure" happened. If you must know, my life is not "spiralling downwards into the depths of God knows what". And I did not "fail". That's their term for getting below 50% in school. My term, is "pre-occupied". Well, whatever made you assume that, well, maybe that's your fear. Sure as hell not mine.

And I never spiral down. I either float down, or fall so fast and hard I break my neck. Spiralling is too plebian. I refuse to give up my uniqueness.

I'm sorry if the person involved, is hurt or for some reason, outraged. But I really don't like people misinterpreting my actions. You should be lucky I'm only blogging.

Another thing which just makes me mad is people who are over-sensitized.

"Oops, sorry I nudged your elbow."
"Eh, sorry I nudged your file."
"Sorry I shifted your paper."

= =""

Puh-leaze don't apologize for these little little things. I see you everyday in school. We go to the same classes everyday. We live in school everyday. Spare me the little apologies and the puppy eyes. At the most, a simple sorry and just get on with whatever you're doing will be perfect. An apologetic glance will suffice. Whatever. Just don't go "Oh gosh, I'm so sorry" like my hamster died or something. I don't have a hamster by the way. They died a looong time ago.

Anyway. I just detest overly sensitive people. Get on with life man. We don't have the time to tinker with little stuff. I know you're being polite and nice and all that, but really, you gotta know when to stop. It gets sarcastic and annoying.

T_T If it's anything worse, it's people who don't know how to stand up for themselves or take chances. My God man. I never knew such cowardly people existed in today's modern world. I do feel like rattling their lil brain. Hmm...an example will be people who don't do things that they want for the sake of inconveniencing others. Oh watehell. Everything's gna inconvenience others whether you like it or not. It's either you, or them. If it's gna be you, fine. Don't bug me about it anymore. I detest martyrs.

I just really hate softies. I can't help being a cynic. I can't help being a realist. I can't help being honest. Deal with it. I'd say it to your face but then you'd break down and cry and say I'm insensitive. To hell with being insensitive. I just want to wake you up. Dammit.

I always have to be the bad guy. T_T If there was a job for this, I think I'd fare pretty well.

Evil laugh. Noble heart. You've been warned.

I'm back! Muahuahua...I spent 3-4 hours doing this template. And it's finally done! I suppose I can credit a few sources for fueling me to go on. Otherwise, I believe I would've still been stuck with a lost and black template.

As dedicated and obsessed as ever, Greenday rules. ^^

HP4 is the fattest, most disappointing, most uncomfortable movie I've ever had to watch for 2.5 hours, at the cost of $6. = = I've expected it eversince I read Xiaxue's review of the movie. Sigh. If you're gna watch it, just grab a pirated DVD and watch it in the comfort of your own home. It just ain't worth a tenth of the book's respect. *shakes head*

I had a good time though. Adam and Serene went to watch the movie with me. We had cold milkshakes before the movie, which accounted for my 10minute leave near the end of the movie. It was bloody cold, alright!?! Plus I'm not lactose tolerant. Nyeh nyeh nyeh. Should've known better before having that Mocha Coffee Shake, though.

We had "dinner" at the new place called Dome just beside the mall. Not bad, not bad, considering it took 10 to 15 minutes of our lives looking for the entrance to the restaurant anyway. It's not inside the mall, it's outside the mall. My God, it's just so frustrating looking for a non-existent diner at the shop directory.

So anyway, I really wish I brought my camera then. The atmosphere, I give 5 stars. Lights, music, view and all, so good. Perfect place for having long chats with a small group of friends. Perfect place for gazing into your date's face for hours. Perfect place for working on your laptop with a hot cuppa cappucino. It's just perfect.

The food is awesome if you have a big appetite. My Diet Coke consisted of a glass with ice and a straw, for $3.20 = =" Serene's cappucino was what, $3.80??? or something liddat? Anyhoo, if you're planning to dine there, make sure you're gna eat and drink your money's worth. Their sandwiches and grills are huge portions (literally and financially). I mean, bug-eyed HUGE. *doing a bug-eyed face for emphasis* But their taste, ooh la la. Heaven.

You've got to give them credit for their service. The best I've ever seen. The food and drinks come in less than 5 minutes. The waiters and waitresses are just everywhere and ready to do your bidding. Wait, that didn't sound right. They're just quick to act. Plus, they smile. Go to any KB or Seria restaurant and all you get is a grunt or an angry glance. Kudos to Dome for getting the excellent staff!

Go to Dome. You won't regret it. Unless you're a miserable old miser.

I got Greenday's Bullet in a Bible. It's their American Idiot concert in England. They don't have any DVDs though. Still, it's f*ckin' good!!!!! I STILL WANT DEC 17th TICKETS!!!!! "Dear God, please be nice. Let me watch this concert and I won't swear again. Publicly anyway."

I got Coldplay's X and Y album too. Haven't listened to it yet. I'm saving it for the boring times. Have a lil something to do.

I hate my country's government. I do. *This is the part where you should read the update.*

Anyhoo, toodles. I've had a vibrant day.

Woo~ this took me and hour to write. I feel good. Nanananananana. I know that I would. Nanananananana.

UPDATE: Due to the sensitivity of the topic, and the frickin' closed country i live in, the most exciting part of this post has been removed. Whoever wants to read the juicy parts, just email me here. ^^

I can't anymore

I can't keep breaking down in the middle of conversations. I can't keep up with appearing in society anymore. I can't do what you want me to anymore. I can't keep conversations in my head anymore.

Funny. 3 in a boat. Entirely different situations. Completely the same frustration and anger. *Wry smile* God, you're nasty.

HP4

I've got 2 more HP4 tickets for this saturday at the mall. Confirmed gna watch is me and Adam. Who wants it better speak up fast. I'd appreciate early acknowledgements ^^

Officially screwed

My end of year results are effin dastardly. Very colourful combination if I may say so. I'm thinking of dropping Chemistry though. That way I might be able to focus more on Physics and Biology without having to worry about bonds and structures. = =" I dunno yet. We'll see what happens next year. I hope my AS results will be what I hoped for >.<>

I've gone back to being a hermit. There's just nothing to stimulate me. I hate that feeling. But I always have to be the one who goes oh never mind me, I'm too taxing and I'll only interrupt you. And I don't even have a freakin' after-college goal anymore. What's the use if I'm off for UBD or Curtin. Blehhh...I just flinch when I think of it. I'm not saying those Unis are bad, it's just that I'm not a UBD or Curtin person. I'm a bigger-than-life person. Whatever that means. Ahhh watehell. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm just screwed. No chance of getting that scholarship now. Might as well just brood. I hate this place. No, I hate being stuck here.

I wish I knew more blasphemies. That would make my blog entries more interesting. The latest one I found is...."Get away from me, you...wart from hell!" XD Damn funny.

Sigh. I normally hate labelling and character judgements. But I just love to do it with my self. Guess that shows what a tiny, depressed insect I am. = = The term loser is too common. Insignificant and deranged sounds much better.

Heh. Asperger's Syndrome is much more better than ADHD i reckon. At least you've got the mental capabilities. ADHD? Sports maybe. But everyone knows that ain't a rewarding thing is this place. Not unless you live in the States or anywhere else. = ="

So I'm back to being moody. Brooding is what I do best. It's just too bad they don't have any competitions for that. Otherwise I think I stand a chance of scoring a medal. Ha. Ha. Ha.

HAHAHA...this ADD diet is funnier than Kenny

Taken from http://www.oneaddplace.com/add-diet.php

First, what NOT to eat for TWO WEEKS:

1) NO DAIRY PRODUCTS, especially cow's milk. This is the single most important restriction. Instead try Almond milk, Rice milk, or Better Than Milk. Drink water instead of milk. In fact, drink lots of water. The brain is about 80% water, and increasing your water intake to 7 to 10 glasses per day might be helpful all by itself. Sodas, Gatorade, teas, icees, etc., do not count as water. Water counts as water.

2) NO YELLOW FOODS. Especially Corn or Squash. Bananas are white. Don't eat the peel.

3) NO JUNK FOODS. If it comes in a cellophane wrapper, don't eat it.

4) NO FRUIT JUICES. Too much sugar content. One small glass of apple juice has the sugar content of eight apples. Later on you can have juice, but dilute it with water 50/50.

5) CUT SUGAR INTAKE BY 90%. If you can, cut it down to zero. Sugar is in just about everything, but give it a try. Do your best without going crazy.

6) CUT CHOCOLATE BY 90%. No more than a single piece, once a week.

7) NO NUTRASWEET. None. Period.

8) NO PROCESSED MEATS and NO MSG. Only get meats with labels that say, “Turkey and Water,” etc. If the meat has chemicals listed that you can't pronounce, don't buy it.

9) CUT FRIED FOODS BY 90%.

10) AVOID FOOD COLORINGS WHENEVER POSSIBLE. See if your child is sensitive to any particular colors, such as Reds, Yellows, etc. For now, though, avoid all if possible.

SUMMARY: Just eat foods that God made for a while. Eat like people did in the 1940's. Go to a used book store and get a Betty Crocker's Cook Book for recipe ideas. There really are about 10,000 meals that you CAN eat. Just not much in the way of “fast foods” or “convenience” foods.
AFTER TWO WEEKS begin adding these foods back into your diet, one food every other day. Eat A LOT of that food every day for four days. If you have a problem with one of the foods, you will see some kind of a “reaction” within four days. The reaction can vary from big red splotches on the body to ears turning bright red to explosive temper outbursts. If there's a problem, you'll know. If there's no problem, enjoy the food.

WHAT TO EAT TO FEED THE ADHD BRAIN:
1) FOR BREAKFAST SERVE HIGH PROTEIN, LOW CARBOHYDRATE MEALS. Say, “Good-bye,” to Breakfast cereals and milk. Serve 60% Protein and 40% Carbohydrates for Breakfast. Other meals should be 50% / 50%.

2) PROTEIN SUPPLEMENTS might be needed to get the added protein for Breakfast. They are often very helpful in the afternoon as well. Here is our favorite recipe for a Protein Shake:

a) Make a cup of coffee, using one of General Mills' International Coffees, or something like that, with a flavor that you or your child will like (yes, I know I'm breaking my own rules here, as these coffees have dried milk and some sugar, but I'm trying to get your kid to actually drink the thing, and also get some caffeine mixed with the protein.). Pour the hot coffee into a blender with about 6 oz of ice. Turn on the blender for a bit.

b) Add a good quality protein powder. There are many good ones available. If you can't find one that you like, ask at your local health food store. Get protein powders that are mostly protein and very little carbohydrate. Add between 15 and 20 grams of protein to the cold coffee in the blender.

c) Turn on the blender again.

d) Drink it up.

This protein shake is helpful for a lot of people. For many small kids, and many adults, this recipe works about as well as a small dose of Ritalin (100 mg of caffeine is roughly the same as 5 mg of Ritalin). So many who might just take a small dose of Ritalin might get away with just doing this.
Don't forget, though, that even caffeine can have some side effects. Every once in a while we find someone that has problems with the caffeine in the coffee. Usually, though, the caffeine in the coffee helps the person to focus better. The protein helps to feed the brain. If you find this helpful, have one with Breakfast, and one around 3 pm. If it is not helpful, then don't bother with it.

3) MINERAL SUPPLEMENTS may be helpful. Colloidal Minerals or fully chelated minerals are the best. We like the MinPac from VAXA, but there are several good choices. Don't buy minerals in the grocery store. Get good minerals.

4) ATTEND, EXTRESS, or MEMORIN from VAXA. We recommend the "Attend" product for everyone. "Extress" is recommended in addition for those with problems with hyperactivity and temper, and "Memorin," in addition to the "Attend," for those with poor concentration or memory. These are strongly recommended. Here is more information on ATTEND, the amino acid based, homeopathic medicine that is a great alternative to ritalin.

5) FLAX SEED or PRIMROSE OIL. High sources of Omega oils. Borage oils and some fish oils are good as well. Very important. Mix about a spoonful a day into foods as you prepare them, or add to salad dressings, etc.

6) EAT LOTS OF FRUITS AND VEGETABLES. Avoid Aluminum exposure. Eat in a healthy manner. Try it out and let us know what you think. Oh, before you email back and ask, “Well, what can we eat?” please look through your Betty Crocker Cook Book and you'll find hundreds of recipes that will fit. It's the convenience foods that are most of the problem. Re-discover the lost art of cooking!

Wishing you the best of success,
Doug Cowan, Psy.D., MFCC

ROFLMAO >.<>

sigh...

I must've tampered with the templates too much the other day. I lost my settings. = =" No worries. I'll whip up a new design in no time. Till then, boring ol black it is. I don't trust myself with white. Not so innocent, I suppose. XD

oopsie...I'm not entirely healthy

I just realized I've been visiting my blog everyday just to check, but I didn't log in to blogger. XD Talk about chickenbrained. And you know, I've been thinking lately. Again.

This particular thought has occured to me lots and lots of times, but I've never really checked it out. Chronic procrastination I guess. So tonight, I got my lazy bum off the carpet and in front of the pooter. Did a little Google-ing here and there, and voila, turns out I do have some kinda disorder. lol.

Not that I doubted it long before today. It's called ADD or ADHD: Predominately inattentive. [Not the hyperactive kind, mind you. You don't see me running around in circles when I'm bored.] Now that I've come to think of it, it's no wonder so many things have turned out the way they did. *shrug* It's nothing to be alarmed about really. Nothing new, nothing different. Just a realization. How I found out? Took a test at http://www.oneaddplace.com/attention-deficit-disorder-symptoms.php

"More than 20 items with a score of three or more indicates a strong tendency toward ADD. Items 1, 6, and 7 are essential to make the diagnosis. "

And OH MY GOD I've got 38 items with a score of 3 or more. = ="

Flabbergasted. Gobsmacked. Bloody hell-ed.

Hospitals really should get this ADD/ADHD publicized. It would certainly help the government identify and differentiate the naturally-occuring losers from the mentally deranged. Seriously. But I doubt that's going to ever happen what with World War 3 happening,bird flu+dengue+obesity+diabetes plagues, poverty and hunger, corruption and oh just the daily dose of vanity by celebs. Sigh.

This is still no reason to call me loony, unless I start it first. ^^ Loony nana. NAHHHHH...doesn't go well.

On a more serious note, I'm not pointing the finger to anyone really. I'm just glad I found out. Even if it was all by myself. T_T I don't think I need expert counseling or medication. What I need is for the exams and school to be over and done with, and just some tiring, attention requiring activities of my interest. T_T But watehell. Even if people know I have ADD I don't think they'd know how to go about it. Ignore me more most likely. Thus making me more bored n moody. = ="

I know I have a cousin who has ADHD. Now him, woo~ Totally uncontrollable. Hyperactive gila! My uncle and aunt have my sympathy. lol. Been there, done that. Don't wana experience it ever again. Hey, I'm still entitled to my selfish opinions, no?

I still want Greenday tickets for 17th Dec. T_T

I WANT!!!!!!!

o man o man... Harry Potter's coming out tomorrow!!!! >.< *plotting evil holiday schemes*

Oooooooo if it's one thing I really really really REALLY want now is tickets to Greenday's concert in Melbourne on the 17th Dec. I've never wanted anything this much. Like freaking desperate crazed want. >.< Well almost anything if I can get tickets. >.<

*screaming to the heavens*

Desperation.

Is.

Of.

The.

Most.

Torturous.

Kind.

Ever.

Greenday's American Idiot Rocks!!!!!!!!!!

It's also funny how the two things that I want the most have the same dates : 17th. HP on 17th of Nov. Greenday concert on 17th of Dec. Sigh....please say it was meant to be.

I see

Raya has lost its meaning. I see teens visiting in jeans and shirts. Kids are willing to go to strangers' houses just to collect green packets (ang-pau). People visit just to gossip and talk behind the back of others. Others take advantage of the hosts.

Why's everything getting so immoral and wrong? Why's everyone lost their sense of respect? Why's nothing ever just for the sake of friendship, family, righteousness? I know, as naive and bubble-headed as it sounds, why's nothing ever just? When did we become so corrupted. Brainwashed. Bitter.

It's sad. Not to mention disappointing and exhausting. I've long since given up trying to make peace with others. I've long since extracted myself from this society, whatever it is now.

Shed no tears, nor anger yourself for the deterioration of those around you. It's not worthy of you.

i know what i wished is right

There are more than enough reasons why I want to get out from here. All this time, I've been waiting and wishing, planning my future. All that time, I never focused on my present. Every year, things just became clearer and transparent. My X-ray senses have always been a bonus. Now I just know for sure.

I'm not sorry though. I'm only sorry for the times I snapped, only at the cost of losing friends. I'm only sorry for the times I didn't speak up, because I was too shy. I'm only sorry for the times I hurt people, when my brainwashed mind spoke before I did. I'm only sorry I made mistakes. At my cost. Never at anyone else's.

I've never been good at expressing myself. One reason was that I didn't want to. I believe Mystery suits me. The want to perform something is different from the ability to do it. I didn't want the practise of exposing my thoughts. My thoughts are hence worth more than a dollar, much less a penny.

I do wish I was never born though. I've wished, and I'm still wishing for it. The processes of life and death are just too much for a selfish soul like me.

The thing to understand is that there's always more to what I say or do. I'm a closed box. It's only life's spoon that forces me to open the lid a little. It's funny how people feel better after pouring out their soul. I just feel worse.

On fire

I've got a sudden surge of inspirations. Thanks to dearest MTV, TV3 and deviantart.com

Ahh...the joys of living.

My current playlist:

Matchbox 20 ~ Push
Savage Garden ~ I want you
Sugababes ~ Push the button
Madonna ~ Hung up
Shakespeare's Sister ~ Stay
Robbie Williams ~ Make me pure
POD ~ Change the world
Shakira ~ Don't bother
Kanye West ft. Jamie Foxx ~ Gold digger
Janet Jackson ~ That's the way love goes
Backstreet Boys ~ I Still
Alicia Keys ~ Unbreakable

I can't help but think I have good taste in music too. XD

I wonder if this is a calling for my future. *deep in thought* My current dilemma is deciding what major I'll choose for uni. I'm stuck between Engineering and Graphic Designing. =\ I suppose I'll mull over it next year. At the moment, I'm just indulging in what satisfies me the most. Wish it helped my exams though. XD

If it's another thing...

I can't draw for the life of me. I can't paint. I can't bloody do anything artistic with paint, dammit. T_T I can't do anything with pixels either.

Aaaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's it. You never ask me about my artistic capabilities if you wanna see daylight again. Capish?

My Rules

As a rule, I never reveal anything more than a hint of my feelings. I certainly was a weird kid; quietly sitting in one corner, imagining all kinds of scenarious and play-acting them with dolls. Other kids I know were screaming around for ice-cream and speaking out loud to themselves when playing with Barbie.

I never spoke a word. The script spoke by itself in my head. Always only in my head. So people thought me mute and dumb. I only looked at them and wondered why they asked me stupid questions.

It was fun for me I guess. I was in my own world, up there. So many possibilities with so few props. Of course the occasional butt-in by a loud, screechy sister was never welcome. Of course I exploded. But I never won anyway.

That doesn't matter.

I just wonder why people care so much about what other people think. About others and themselves. Sure they're interesting. As gossip I suppose. But gossip as the main topic of all conversations is pretty sad, isn't it? No life-ers.

I just think it's a waste of time and brain power. I'd rather try to comprehend the wonders of life. Like the orgasmic experience of falling off a 50 foot cliff.

Hmm. Growing up is certainly not fun. I can never remember worse experiences than making mistakes. That's why I hate memories. Well, close to hate anyway. I'm practising selective memorising. I only remember what I want to. It's very convenient.

Well I don't bloody care what people think. Of others, of themselves, of me. I just want to achieve my goals before I die. Life's too short to bother ourselves with who said what.

I just wish I hadn't been so much of a weird kid. Otherwise I'd have people I can talk to. I've lost touch with the world. I don't know what to say anymore. Hmm. Solitude can either make one go crazy, or the rest of the world crazy.

Hey, it's me or them.

Bengawan Solo's Pineapple Tarts

Whee. Nico got us 2 boxes of these from Changi Airport.
By gumdrops, they made from 100% natural, wholesome ingredients and they literally melt in your mouth. XD but get this: they're Singapore Nyonya cookies. How flabbergasting can they be? Dramatic laaa. So my kueh mor is Brunei Malay cookies la...potong steam eh.

Anyhoo, they packaged the whole thing very nicely. I like their green cardboard cover. So malay yet chinesey. Plus they're easy to open, not like some cookies, them nutters glued the whole lid with sellotape. Like wassamatterwithyouuu, people susah susah open only. In the end they give up trying to open the thing pulang. Tsk tsk tsk. Remember, fellow bakers. Packaging is important. Easy to open means eager to please our appetites. ^^
So pretty yea? ^^ They've got 3 layers of this ring thingy in the plastic container, so there's quite a lot. Wah. So golden brown. So plump and soft. So cute to the eye. So so so... *drool*
Mmmm......they're totally orgasmic. haha. They do melt in your mouth, but not literally. You chew, then they melt. They're just right that they don't go powdery and flakey in your mouth. They're just so scrumpcious. However it is that u spell it.

I tell you. Once you pop, you can't stop. I've eaten nearly the whole box, and I'm not even a pineapple tart fan!!! Go get em. Just more or less $20. Well around that price anyway. Totally worth it fer a boxful o melting moments.

Damn, that Mrs Liew's good.

devious deviant

Well now. I've just joined deviantart.com and I plan to become an active seller pretty soon.

I've known about deviantart.com. for 2 or 3 years now. Syn introduced the site to me. My first impression was pretty pathetic tho. I went "Woooooooooooooowwwwww..." Hey, I never knew anyone could do art from pixels only aight?
This picture is called "Be my sunshine". I dunno who though. I remember it's a female who painted this. Yeah, she painted the whole thing. Draw and paint and all, from scratch. I never bothered to save the name of the artist. But from now on I will!!!

The graphics and talent really got to me. I practically collected hundreds of deviations (I didn't use or distributed them yehhh,they're fer personal use.) and my hard disk is like chockful of em. Very interesting stuff, some people can do.

I just find the pictures so comforting. I may not understand what the artist is trying the say, but I know that I feel when I admire the picture. Now that doesn't happen a lot. Really.

It's just that, it's so hard to express oneself these days. It's either

1. you can't
2. you won't
3. you bloody can't and won't

Dead depressing. I've gone out of my mind in hysterics when I couldn't say or do anything to alleviate my self. It wasn't a pleasant experience. Weirdly educational, but not pleasant.

This one's one of my favourites. It's called "The gremlins in the machine" by Gnomosapien.

I've already submitted 4 deviations. The 4th one is the most satisfying of all. I guess it's cause I put in so much effort in only 2 hours. It didn't end up entirely like I wanted it to be, but I submitted it anyway. I just had to finish it. I haven't been able to accomplish anything in such a long time. It feels pretty good actually. Like a burden off my chest.

I've always known growing up meant more responsibilities, but I never really believed in more headaches. = =" That wasn't very wise. I pride myself in being wise.

I recently read an old Calvin and Hobbes book. Calvin said "Childhood is short. Maturity is forever." He's so right. I trust his philosophies actually. I completely agree with him. Why on earth do I have to make my bed when I'm gna mess it up anyway?????? Sigh. Mothers. Monsters.

I wish the monsters under my bed were slimy and drooly and sarcastic. It's too bad for me my monsters are my memories. I think they're the worst monsters of all. Don't you?

This one's called "Run run run". Another anonymus one thanks to my laziness.

If only we could run from anything, everything we desired.

If only life was just as simple.

Sigh.

I hate growing up. It's so...so spiteful. I can't remember my self ever being so bitter like this. What's wrong with me.

Well, I hope my artistic inspirations continue for some time. If it comes and goes, I hope the periods are short. Wahaha. Sound so much like PMS to me.

Happy raya.

Raya raya raya!

How to look like a Raya-ian (female version).

Step 1 : Pick a suitable tudung for the outing. If it's going to be cold, a thicker material would be nice. Keep that head warm n fuzzy. XD
I prefer cotton because they're easier to handle, plus they don't go out of shape when you're blasted by a sudden gust of wind.

Step 2 : Make sure the colours get along together. Tudung, baju, kain.

Step 3 : Make up! Never go heavy, unless you know what you're doing. I did a nice, light touch of blue eye-shadow and a thin smudge of dark eye-liner at the edges to enhance the eyes.


Step 4 : Smile, and blush. ^^ Can't see much I guess because I did it real light. Cheekbones, do the cheekbones!


Step 5 : Accesorize! I *ehem* borrowed a leaf-blue crystal oriented necklace which showed under the tudung for a classy effect. A contrasting bracelet did the charm for red shoes too.

The finished product! Wala!

I know, it's wrinkled, but I took this picture after I went out. =p

Well, the first few days of Syawal are really , always divine. All that food. *drool* I don't blame Kenny. It's practically impossible to not gain weight during raya. I haven't got the chance to get pictures of all that yummylicious food, yet. Just waiting for the opportune moment. ^^

Well the first few days went by pretty nicely. Relatives came. I have the cutest niece ever! I wish she wasn't so strong though, otherwise I could've risked snapping a picture of her. =p And parents always look oh so divine. I guess it's just the atmosphere. Everyone looks and feels divine in Syawal.

We also went to Bandar to visit my aunt n uncle. I always like going to their house for raya. It's always an interesting experience. In an odd, intellectual way. They always talk about the government, the citizens, attitudes and health. I don't know why, but everytime I go there, I come out a bit more older. Just weird and scary. I guess we're always doing the same old things every bloody day, we just don't give a damn anymore. A wake up call in a different environment always does it's thing.

HAHA. Oh yea, we went to Dynasty's to have dim sum on the 2nd day of raya. ^^ Deeeeeelicious.

Eve of Raya

Well here's a recap.

On the eve of raya, i had a horrible physics paper. I also found out that I scraped by for school's physics ^^ *grin*

I had this horrible urge to clean something, so I cleared my study table and piled up every single schoolwork into a corner of my table.

Looks like a paper metropolis.

Well the usual house cleaning commenced. I found dust bunnies everywhere possible.

Ooo, I also got to be in charge of the cookies! =) We didn't make them this year, because we were all too busy with work and school. So we bought them la. Boleh tahan la, but I could've done cookies which tasted better. Wahahaha.

Woo~ so pretty. It looks like cookie town to me.

Good times

well i've been ahem busy studying. today's the last day of school/exams before the raya holidays. raya is on friday by the way =( well i'll be busy helpin outaround the house celebratin raya ;) for the next few days, so here's just something to keep this blog busy. hahaha. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri! Maaf Zahir & Batin =)













































I've always been the moody one, thinking that my school life sucked, I deserved better, I wanted more. But looking back, I've realized I've never really enjoyed my younger years to the fullest because of how I thought. My life was pretty sweet really. Unfortunately I just took things for granted.