topsy turvy here

I've found something new to listen to! Fiona Apple. yum yum. I like her first release from her new album - Not About Love. i just love the way she handles the piano, and the jazzy ornaments she put in. @@ i've been getting bored of everything I have. yep, all 29.1gb of it. lol. my hard drive's full now. it took me what, 2 to 3 years to fill up all 4ogb of it? hmmm, thats not bad. harharhar.

hmm, i dunno, but some people, just really tick me off. its easy to wish i can just walk away and ignore them right? but then there's this thing called "fate" that the course of my life must come across theirs oh just every other day. so if i simply plug my ears when they're around, i'll be labelled uncaring. and if i do try to pay attention to them, i end up blowing up and just making whatever relationship it is that we have a fraction more worse. my long winded sentences must be a strain on your brain. sigh.

sometimes my mouth just runs away from me. and only minutes later do i realize i must've hurt someone's feelings. but i can't ever be sure because my own feelings are so dull, and all i can perceive from someone else's is their body language. not a reliable radar, because i tend to wander around in my mind when i start talking. weird. i don't blame anyone for calling me distant. i know it myself. ahhh life's mysteries.

so, coming back to the point, what does one do in such circumstances? take extra emo-painkillers so i don't blow up? anger management? try to reason out with them? in any case, it'll still end up bad no matter what i do or don't do.

*sighs and folds arms*

i don't know why horrible personalities just freak me out. really, they do. i usually have this strong urge to reason out with them and change their minds by sheer persistence. and yeah, usually i feel drained and not satisfied at all. horrible vegetables.

i've got a few agendas to take care of this week. that includes shifting Cory out to the main phone line (if i decide to share it with the world), finding space for all my clothes (they obviously don't fit into that tiny wooden box you call a closet), controlling my junk intake OR exercising more, aaaaaaand compose rhymes on the quirks of college freshmen + seniority. ^^

fiona apple good. i loike.

to pinkerton: the 10th X Queen is grumpy and claims that you're spending too much time romancing Renzardo and forgetting to send the messenger back to the tropics.

and yes, i like confoosing people. i mean, i like to confoose people. it's a hobby, ya? a very creative one. well, if i had a choice, i wouldn't have given up my 'scaring people' one, but i ran out of easy-to-scare people. sad, huh.