versatile

yeah. thats what i am. im versatile.

vincent in school, you dont seem interested in guys le
nana im versatile
nana i talk to everyone
vincent i mean like slesh and viv are regular guy killers
nana wat u meeeeaaannn im not interested in guys ah?
vincent your just like..... i'm not interested in guys attitude
nana lol
nana yes, i suppose people have misunderstood me to be a lesbian
nana harharhar
vincent dont tell me you dont like any guy b4???
nana of course ive liked guys before
nana of course i still like guys
vincent ya la
nana im normal dude, i like guys
nana lol
vincent is that with an s??
nana its just that i get along with guys well, thats y i have male buddies
vincent guy or guys??
nana sigh
nana u want another blow to ur head or what
nana lol
vincent haha

= ="

its a blessed curse. i can get along with members of both sexes pretty well. maybe it's because of my poker face or something that makes people assume im homosexual. weird. its a pretty interesting thuoght, this topic.

ive asked my male buddies before, "am i so tomboy-ish? manly? without feminine features????"

its always the same reply: you're easy to talk to. you can talk about everything and anything. you're versatile. it's comfortable to talk about these thigns with you.

the funniest ive heard was when i told eric about a flight attendant who had mistaken me for a guy and then he said "DUDE?!?!!? the stewardess mustve been blind!!!!!" XD that cheered me up immensely.

i dunno. its just a lonely feeling. i dont appeal to males on the physical level. i intimidate males on the intellectual level. males treat me as one of the guys. girls see me indifferently. o man. yes im very honoured in people's trust in me, and i value that people are so comfortable around me that ive got buddies all around me. i just, dunno what my features are. its all so bland, nothing outstanding. well i dont want outstanding, but at least something appealing.

= =" bummer. i always do this to myself. finding faults.

maybe i should consider being a psychiatrist. lol. people dont seem to mind telling me all their stories.might as well make money out of it. harharhar.

i still need to think of where to go next year. what to do. what to get. this constant 'migraine' surfaces at the oddest times. i find myself imagining strolling in campus of some uni. not knowing where or what. shiatz.

ive watched jarhead and the chumscrubber. both awesome movies. on the intellectual level. i still get irritated when gung-ho movie goers dont appreciate these kind of films. *shallow shallow shallow* i hate it.

mmm. im feeling too bland for anyone's liking at the moment. im not good company. i wonder if i tend to push people away unconsciously. o well. im fine with my solitude.