dreams my foot

recently, ive had this dream twice or more. my teeth went loose and before i knew it, i was spitting teeth like crazy. and pretty soon, i was as gumless as a baby and freaking out and laughing at the same time.

my sister said that losing-teeth-dreams are a good omen.

i told her she was crazy.

the past few days ever since i got back from melbourne has been tooooootally crazy and mindfucking. ive never been this gushed up before. i think its the hormones though, but theres really no way to tell.

for one, there's an impossible mountain of laundry to sort through.

then there's the impossible revision i have to do before i go back to school, which is what, in one week's time!??!?!?!?!

and then there's still absolutely impossible infatuation ive had for days now.

tonight, ive had exhausting, shocking, interesting conversations with several different people. im spent man, spent.

a friend got a first kiss experience just recently.

i feel like a 60 year old spinster.

a friend is absolutely positive im gna ace my A levels next year.

i feel like a fool. not to mention a dunce.

a friend told me what i didnt want to hear, but what i needed to hear.

i feel like a bubbling mix of soda.

when i go to sleep, im going to think of everything that happened and relish in it. dream ka, fantasize one last time, whatever. when i wake up, im going to face reality. be the person i need to be.

man, that hand gesture really dropped a bomb on me. i doubt RY is gna read this but anyway, i was smitten with you. i know, i believe, there was nothing in looking at my hand. im trying to convince myself once and for all, its just hormones. because the chances of an 'us' ever happening is very very very small, according to present and most probably future circumstances. well, it was sweet, fun, and memorable while it lasted. for me anyway. harharhar. yes yes, im getting over it. im getting over this infatuation once and for all. (unless you actually meant something etc etc, mail me.)

IM KIDDING, ALRIGHT?!?! the last part anyway. but the rest of it, i mean it. i need to remind myself that i mean it.

yeah, well, im over it. remind me, once in awhile huh guys? be a pal. this girl can forget her head too sometimes, you know.

this is me capturing capturing the moment, and putting it in my history.

and this is me starting to dream, and shutting the book.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Howie Day - Collide